Hello new year! I wonder what you will bring, I hope you have at least some positive things in store for us.
When I look back at the past two years, I have the feeling I didn’t really live. I put my life on hold, didn’t even do things we still could do. It was somehow as if we were all waiting to get our old lifestyle back, and just killing time until that would happen. Even working at stuff for the dolls was a bit like the manic attempt to distract myself. Maybe I did enjoy it at the time, but I don’t remember enjoying it. That forced withdrawal from other people didn’t make it better. I don’t mind being on my own, but solitude changes self-perception. You don’t need to be self-aware, if you don’t want to. It used to be a nice break from all sorts of demands, but if it becomes a habit it’s probably not that great for your mental health. Hollow and passive, somehow.
So my New Year’s resolution is to try to just accept that there will be no going back, Covid is there, it will be there, and the same goes for other changes, whether they are political or ideological. Thank god people IRL seem to have a bit more common sense than the media wants to suggest, and I will try to create the most active and socially interactive life I can within the restrictions. I am vaccinated, and so are my friends, so it should be safe enough. It’s a plan, at least.
So I hope this year will be better for all of us.
Well put. Thank you for all you do
Thank you. It means a lot to me!
I can totally relate to what you describe here. Dolls have been a distraction and a solace at times, but they can’t replace the social life that we have lost these past 2 years. I recently heard a psychologist call it “languishing” – it’s not depression but it’s not flourishing. Many people are suffering with this. Your resolution to actively work on this is one that resonates with me. I’m going to try and follow your example.
Thank you so much for this post.
That word is a good word for it. There are other things that play into this, but I didn’t want to go into detail. But I think if I want 2022 to be better I need to actively make it better for me.
I think we all can relate to what you feel, indeed. I also think you made a wise decision, this is a very good New Year’s resolution and I applaud you for it. It is inspiring. A big hug!
Thank you! Resolutions are one thing, let’s see if I manage to actually stick to it ;). Big hug back!
I honestly relate. I miss so many things, and there was a period of harsh lockdown that completely drained my desire to take photos–I must have a garden!! Anyways, I wish you the best, and fingers-crossed we get a covid-normal eventually!
I thought you would after what you wrote on your blog. Same to you!
The last two years do feel very dreamlike!